Mom, if I knew…

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I still see your light in the morning air,
The coffee cup you used to share,
I thought we had forever to talk,
But silence built the longest walk.

All those words I never said,
Now echo loud inside my head,
I’d trade my pride, I’d trade my youth,
For one more chance to tell the truth.

I was too young to understand,
How time just slips right through your hands…

If I knew that goodbye was the last one,
I would’ve held you ‘til the night was gone,
Told you how much your love had made me strong —
Even when I broke your heart, you carried on.
I’m sorry for the things I didn’t do,
For all the times I disappointed you.
Now all I have are memories to cling to —
If I knew, oh, if I knew…

You taught me love without reward,
You built my dreams from broken boards.
And I — too busy chasing skies,
Didn’t see the tears behind your eyes.

You said, “Someday you’ll understand,”
Now I finally do — too late, again.
If heaven lets you hear me now,
Please forgive me somehow.

I’m still your child, just lost in time,
Trying to make your heart and mine… rhyme.

If I knew that goodbye was the last one,
I would’ve held you ‘til the night was gone,
Told you how much your love had made me strong —
Even when I broke your heart, you carried on.
I’m sorry for the things I didn’t do,
For all the times I disappointed you.
Now all I have are memories to cling to —
If I knew, oh, if I knew…

Thank you for the sleepless nights,
For every scar you turned to light,
For every fight you let me win,
For loving me through every sin.
I see your smile when I fall apart,
You still live inside my heart.

If I knew that love could outlast time,
I’d have written you a thousand lines,
I’d have stayed a little longer — just to say,
I love you more each passing day.
I’m sorry for the things I never knew,
But everything I am came from you.
And when I whisper to the stars above —
It’s just me… telling you my love.